I find myself wondering if i can consider my life successful at all, if it’s a myth, if becoming beloved or popular in any ways is really all it’s cracked up to be …. In the end I still can’t fight the feeling that I would feel different if I had made the right choices and put in the work it takes to make something of yourself that you can be really proud of
SolidSnakeOnAPlane
I know exactly how you feel. I feel like I myself am either a failure or unrecognized talent. I sure as hell hope if I don’t succeed in reaching out and pursuing my dreams in this lifetime I can continue doing so in the afterlife. For me it seems like the world thinks the only ways to succeed are by going to college (NOT my thing!), being born in an already successful family (and depending on where you are born, and what era you were born in), or becoming a career criminal. Not to mention the success of others who seemingly cheated their way through success I can’t help but just hate them and their success even more!
Boss
See even if I considered myself an unrecognized talent, I still accept that I have not marketed or presented myself in an accessible enough way for any of my material to succeed in a meaningful enough way. I feel lucky to understand that it generally takes an immense amount of work ethic and dedication and even getting lucky on top of that… i just have this weird existential melancholy about feeling like i pushed myself really close to being able to be a lot happier with myself different times in life in different ways and couldn’t quite crack the code and now i’m like shit… i’m almost 30… i guess life isn’t exactly a game