Ive been fond of blanco tequila and had some grape md2020 which was aight but it had gross ass sediment at the bottom lmao. I have these bottles of guiness that just dont taste good to me and ive been choking down, last one i watered down half way through. Ive also been fond of ipa and pilsner at the bar

I find myself wondering if i can consider my life successful at all, if it’s a myth, if becoming beloved or popular in any ways is really all it’s cracked up to be …. In the end I still can’t fight the feeling that I would feel different if I had made the right choices and put in the work it takes to make something of yourself that you can be really proud of

Coming out of the closet on here and just linking my main stuff directly. Could really use some support life is kicking my ass.

music on my bandcamp page

and a lot of it is streaming on all platforms under the name Cashlin

Whats up Newgrounds. I recently had the person renting where we stay come get super pissed and basically intimidate us out of our room at the apartment. We had an informal agreement that we could stay there for awhile now and I personally never had anyone explain that we were sub leasing vs renting from the owner, not on any lease, person who rents the place not living there but coming to stay sometimes. Basically we would get all communication from her son we live with, through the grapevine. Which i admit was foolhardy. We got the word that she was going to evict us in two months time so we figured ok lets look for rooms for september 1st. Now she graciously was going to cover the last two months of rent which included june, meaning assuming september was our move out date was naive but also we got word of two months towards the end of june.. so… anyways, 2 weeks after hearing this she shows up cleaning out a closet and i mention hey we have one or two months right something like that and she says something like that back to me. Kind of brushing me of but confirming the timeline. Maybe a week after that she shows up super pissed off with her son and everybody because the place is a little messy and she is like an ocd about things being clean person (she was maybe going to stop renting here and wanted the deposit back) anyway she starts a lot of shit, i come out my rook trying to be polite and shit like heyy i toured a room is september 1st alright and she is like no i want you out yesterday, my partner comes out shook up form her being rude as fuck me to everyone starts arguing my partners mom tells her over the phone to call the cops that she’s harassing us, they come and tell her based on tenants rights we cant be moved out and a couple days later she tries moving iur stuff to the living room and we gotta call the cops again. At this point im just worried because she started throwing away dishes and shit cleaning the place up because she was mad there are always dirty dishes (we live with a 20 and 21 year old. What did you expect there to be in the sink, a fucking janitorial PhD?…) so i have to spend like 9 hours of a day off packing all our shit and bringing it to my partners moms basement, we have to go stay with a friend, i have to come back to our room to sleep on the bed for a few hours at a time when shes not there cleaning to avoid arguments and bullshit and didnt get rem sleep for a week. I moved into the city but my partners bed and bed frame and big shelf are still there and im worried she is gonna due us for back rent and i cant convince my partner to back down and get their shit out or throw any of it out and just try to get the most out of the pretty shitty ordeal of sleeping on their ten year old brothers floor at their moms house. I would rather not get an eviction on my record despite everything. This bullshit has been so stressful and my partners hormones have been all crazy and they have trauma and ptsd so this woman coming and starting shit when she could've explained what she needed has really hurt their mental health and gotten in the way of doctors apartments during all the shit going down and interrupted going to work which was a delicate balance for them. They have essentially been fucked over bad by this and the law doesnt really protect people who are affected like that, I wanted to clear the room out and try to be nice in case the last two months being free was still on the table, and everythings fucked up. Idk wondering if anyone has their own stories or advice. I guess the silver lining is i love being directly in the city its just me and my box fan and my wooden board on the floor with blankets i use as a bed lmfao and my music gear i barely use lol

Right now im drinking pbr. Its kinda nice. Gives you a mellow but strong vibe. I had some natural ice the other week and at first i felt like i was drinking some kind of industrial waste water but i think it really helped me get shit done. Modelo has been a favorite of mine lately. The green in the best flavor hands down. Had some golden wheat mango cider and angry orchard cider and i felt like ciders are ok for kind of chilling and getting a buzz while relaxing but they make me lazy and dont give me much energy. Let me know what youre sipping

How have your months been going? How have your weeks been going? Have you been contemplating life differently at all? Have you been facing the destruction of the world or just tending to your little garden and basking in joy? I guess they say its good to have a mix of both. Ive been thinking lately that i would accomplish more it I just let myself drink a little more beer. Even once a day. If my personal threshold for starting to get shit done and having energy after work is like 3 or 4 beers at night, and a couple in the morning when i wake up, who fucking cares? Its not like the stress and depression was healthier for me. Its not like im somehow going to get crazy worse at life or lose the small gains im making in life now. Idk i think as i age it gets easier to take in the truth and think for myself, even if that doesnt mean inventing my own way of life or being a totally purely unique individual at all, if that makes sense

Leave your stories below!

I am still behind on rent which is going to incur a late fee and have a myriad of car maintenance bills like an oil change and to replace a tire with thinning tread which is going to start balding and im late on insurance, anything at all helps 

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Pp: caislino@yahoo

been working but also adjusting after a difficult move

How productive is it to apply to career / salary jobs, i dont have a college degree but i imagine some jobs i dont need one for and sometimes you dont need to be as qualified as their position says … i cant do this nearly minimum wage work anymore

I been very lightly flirting with the idea of selling some of my old ng merch but its so sentimental and some of it is so incredibly rare and not even sold often so i cant find listin to guage the value that it doesnt seem like a smart move. Plus what if the value gets even higher as time goes on?